Monday, September 20, 2010

A Little Like Lot's Wife

For those of you who don't know me well, I'm always digging for gold. Not Anna Nicole Smith-style, but looking for little nuggets to help navigate my way through the wild ride of life. Of course the Bible is a good place to start. But, sometimes my ears and heart are more receptive to His messages from the mouths--and keyboards--of other people. People I can rattle off my list of followup questions to, or write back on the subject at hand. (I started writing letters to my favorite authors, manufacturers, and anyone I thought needed to hear from me since elementary school. Yes, big-haired, bespectacled 12-year-olds can be quite insightful...or so I thought.)

One person whose words have hit me over the head more times than I can count is Angie Smith--wife, mother, author and fellow Anne of Green Gables enthusiast. Her nuggets can be found at http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com/


Last week she tackled Lot's wife, who I didn't realize I had so much in common with (including an affinity for salt.) Angie writes:


"We don't ever learn her name, but her legacy is one of looking back. She has been rescued from death, from sin and depravity, and there is something that still haunts her enough to stop moving toward whatever is ahead."


She goes on to say:


"God has been gracious with me for many years in my turning back. A glimpse of what could have been, a temptation that makes me question my faith. An earth-shattering loss* that beckons me to believe that the mountain is too far and the valley will be just fine." (*Angie lost a baby girl hours after she was born.)


On the subject of what's holding us back:


"It has been swallowed by grace, friend. And you need not miss what He has for you by believing there is something worth going back for. Leave it be. The Lord has told you where to go and it's time to walk. Eyes straight ahead, tangled in the spectacular love of a Savior Who wants nothing less for you than the summit. And as you stare at what might have been, you are immobilized, unable to bring Him the glory He deserves. And also, He might make you salt. Just saying."


Of course Andrew is the first thing that came to mind. But he's not all.


As the self-proclaimed "Queen of Sentimentality" I probably wouldn't have left elementary school if I hadn't outgrown the desks. Saying I'm not a fan of change is an understatement. But I'm working on that. I still don't believe in change for the sake of change. And I don't believe we should ever forget the people and events who helped shape who we are today.

But when stranded on "Memory Lane," or "What-If Way,"sometimes you just gotta make a u-turn.

...Or run the danger of becoming the world's second-biggest salt lick.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Happy Birthday, Gracie-Girl

How quickly this...

Grows into this...


Dear Gracie,

Four years ago you made me a mommy. The most fulfilling, humbling and challenging experience I've ever known. You ignited a powerful love--unconditional and fierce--helping me realize how God must feel about us. Your bright spirit and sweetness add color to my days and joy to my heart. Your stubborn determination and feisty femininity test and stretch me--in a good way. But most of all, your very presence makes the world a better place. I am blessed to be your mommy, and so thankful for your life! Happy 4th Birthday!

Love Always,
Mommy XOXO